Facing the Music.
Have you ever said you were going to do something, like, multiple times and you never do it? Even when you tell LOADS of people you are going to do it? But instead you just sort of forget, or you pretend to do it for awhile so it seems like you’re doing what you said you were going to do even though you really aren’t actually doing it.
That’s how I am with my diabetes sometimes. It’s my one (but not only) big annoying habit that doesn’t seem to go away. The truth is, I’m a bit lazy with my diabetes. I don’t test nearly enough. I don’t count my carbs as accurately as I should. I exercise but not regularly. I don’t change my basal rates or bolus ratios and I certainly NEVER DO BASAL TESTS. I mean, come on…
I admit it.
I don’t do everything I should be doing to manage my diabetes. And not wanting to do is a piss poor excuse, right? I mean, yes, I can hate it ’til the cows come home but that doesn’t make the diabetes any better (or go away) .
Today, Kerri announced she has reached a low, very respectable A1C. And it made me think that, even though it was really hard for her, and even though she has to sacrifice a lot to get there, she really wanted to accomplish this goal and she made it.
My A1Cs, on the other hand, have gone in the other direction. During college, and even during my first year or so on the East Coast, my A1C was in the low 7s. Nothing fabulous, but they were decent. I didn’t have to work too hard and things just fell in line together. But then work got busier, and I started to travel more, and eat out more, and I’ve moved twice since then and suddenly my blood sugars started to creep up and I went from a 7.1 to a 7.8 to an 8.4 and God knows what it will be next. I don’t really want to find out.
More than two years ago, I was thinking the same thing. I asked Kevin Perese to send me his legendary Excel spreadsheet to help with keeping track of my blood sugars. He sent it to me and I never used it.
I found the email again in my inbox (thanks to Gmail’s bottomless pit) and I opened it. I looked at it again and I think it would be very helpful. I recently started using an Excel spreadsheet to track my finances, and I think I could probably do something similar with my blood sugars. I’ll also use my Carelink system to look at trends in my CGM as well. If I’m going to be wearing the CGM I might as well use it to make overall directional changes in my blood sugars rather than just using it as a defensive tool against blood sugars that have already started to creep up.
My next A1C is on November 2. That’s a little less than two months away, but it’s just enough time to actually do something productive with my blood sugars.
I have had diabetes for 15 years. And I know what I should do. But I just need work on that whole “doing” thing.