What You Can’t See
Tonight was another exciting evening at Weight Watchers.
Loss this week: 2.2 lbs.
Loss total: 5.2 lbs.
Our WW leader gave me a Bravo bookmark with a star on it for achieving the 5 pound goal. I am happy that I’ve reached 5 pounds and this also means I’ve left the 190s and I’m now in the 180s, which is definitely progress.
The strange thing is that I don’t really feel 5 pounds lighter. Maybe it’s because 5 pounds just isn’t enough to feel a difference, but I feel exactly the same as when I started. I wonder if that’s why it’s hard for people to stay motivated when losing weight. If you don’t feel like you’re making a difference, even when you are told that you are, do you really feel as motivated as when you make a giant leap.
I started thinking about this in terms of diabetes too. Sometimes it’s hard for me to want to get into really tight control because I don’t feel much of a difference between a 105 mg/dl and a 155 mg/dl, even though I know my blood vessels can tell the difference, over time, with all that added sugar. A blood sugar of 305 mg/dl is definitely noticeable, which is one of the many reasons I try to take care of myself as best as I can, so I can avoid the queasy, dry-mouth reaction I get to a high blood sugar. If my body reacted more poorly to a 155 mg/dl, maybe I would be more inclined to avoid them. I hear that the tighter control you have, the more noticeable highs are. I’ve definitely noticed that since I’ve started Weight Watchers and had a more consistent trend of lower blood sugars, a 250 mg/dl has much different physical reaction than it did six months ago when I wouldn’t have noticed unless I tested.
Anyway, just thinking out loud. Maybe once I lose another 10 or 20 pounds there will be a more noticeable difference, and maybe once my A1C goes into the 6s, I’ll be able to feel high blood sugars even more.
Then again, maybe I won’t.