Tonight is the third night this week I have crawled into bed at 7pm and woken up just before midnight.
On Sunday I came home from running errands and instead of making dinner, slept from 6pm until my mother phoned at 9pm. The only reason I didn’t stay asleep was because she started prepping for teaching the next day and the difference in time zones makes calling during the week difficult.
On Monday I fell asleep immediately after getting off a planning committee conference call. I thought I would just lay down for a few minutes, but my “a quick nap sounds nice” ideas usually end up lasting four hours.
Happened again tonight. Now I’m awake because I never tested, never ate dinner, never brushed my teeth and never put on pajamas. I’m also afraid that if I don’t wake up I’ll end up waking up at 4 a.m. with nothing to do or I’ll sleep too much and be groggy all day. Not that I’m not already tired at work everyday…
In July, when I was moving, falling asleep as soon as I came home from work. I was sort of a non-stop go-go-go kind of girl, with shopping and unpacking and planning and cleaning and then of course there was work. There were plenty of nights I went to bed at a normal time, like 10:30 or 11:00 p.m., but there were others where hitting the sack at 7pm seemed almost normal.
It’s inconsistent at best. There are plenty of nighs where I go to the gym like a normal person, come home and make dinner like a normal person, chat on the internet like a…well, like I usually do.
I tried looking up symptoms for chronic fatigue syndrome, but I don’t know if I’m just tired or “fatigued.” I don’t know how you can tell. Somedays at work I’m perfectly fine until I get home and crash, or I’m perfectly fine all day long. I’m not always tired. But when I am I feel like I’ve been run over by a speedboat. I also don’t have any of the muscle symptoms described. I mean, my back has been sore for a couple of days, but for most of the summer they’ve been just fine. And I have a two-year history of having bad back muscles and that has nothing to do with being tired.
But there are days like today where I yawned my way through the morning emails, lunch, and most of an afternoon phone call and really only “woke up” after a sugar buzz from a piece of birthday cake.
I don’t get it. I thought maybe if I blogged about it somebody else would know what I was talking about and could give me some advice. It’s okay if you don’t. I suppose this also to keep track of symptoms in case they it gets better/worse.
Okay, I need to crawl back into bed and hopefully get some sleep.